My Christmas decorations have been hauled back up into the attic, and my new pink striped calendar from Target has been officially christened. Those physical actions seem to declare, “We are moving on! New beginnings!” But what about the areas of my heart? Am I really ready for new beginnings?
You know those sticky emotions? I was in the garage and ran across a box of my mother’s old purses and dishes. Two years ago, days before her funeral, I scooped up armloads of her belongings. Somehow in the transition of watching her pass from this life to the next, my emotions thought that I would need her gold beaded purse she always wore to weddings. Now as I release many of these things I thought I would need, I can rest in the fact that she won’t be offended in heaven if I no longer store her purse in my garage. I can sense her cheering me on to run MY race. The unique race that He has set before me.
These messy emotions also arise as I let my little girls go to run their God-given races as women. I am reminded that my teenager is no longer five when I stroke the back of her hair and she whips her head around, quickly reminding me that if I keep touching her wand-induced ringlets, her hair WILL go flat!
This letting go and moving on can bring tears at times, but it is very biblical. Here are some examples of God telling His people to let go and move on:
After the death of Moses the servant of the Lord, the Lord said to Joshua son of Nun, Moses’ aide: “Moses my servant is dead. Now then, you and all these people, get ready to cross the Jordan River into the land I am about to give to them — to the Israelites. I will give you every place where you set your foot, as I promised Moses. Your territory will extend from the desert to Lebanon, and from the great river, the Euphrates — all the Hittite country — to the Great Sea on the west. No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you.
1 Samuel 16:1
The Lord said to Samuel, “How long will you mourn for Saul, since I have rejected him as king over Israel? Fill your horn with oil and be on your way; I am sending you to Jesse of Bethlehem. I have chosen one of his sons to be king.”
Part of staying mentally and spiritually healthy is learning how to close the chapter on our yesterdays. In Philippians 3:13-14, Paul writes “Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”
As I type, in my mind I can hear my toddler granddaughters screaming/singing the lyrics “Let it go! Let it go!” from the Frozen movie. Many years from now, my daughters and granddaughters will be releasing me and letting me go as they finish their races here. I will be so overjoyed to be with Him, but until then I am going to run the race set before me and press on until I see Him face-to-face.
Wonder what kind of purses Mom and I will be bringing to the ultimate wedding feast?